Monday: I drank a coffee, two double shots, and two cups of tea throughout the day.
Tuesday: i drank a cup of coffee an iced coffee, one double shot, one amp, and two cups of tea.
Wednesday: I drank a cup of coffee, a double shot, an iced coffee, an amp, a cup of tea.
Thursday: I drank a cup of coffee, a double shot, an iced coffee, and some tea. I think that will be it.
I just want to start by saying...

pride is tmrw i am way excited. it will be fun. i need fun this weekend after this week. i am so exhausted from all of my classes and work. i just want to go to my room and watch bad television, but of course i can't cause of work. oh well. i have homework i'll get it done and then go home and watch bad television.

so everyone should know by now that i am a horrible cook. i know that no one has ever tasted my cooking but believe me you don't want to. so here is the story. So tonight i decided that i would make spagetti and meatballs. i can make spagetti, but...i can't really make meat balls. SO i looked up a recipe online. I read some where about boiling them. i didn't know what to think so i kind of boiled them....so i was making them in the spagetti sauce and that was not such a great idea considering spagetti sauce is done before the meat balls. so the sauce was boiling and splashing sauce everywhere. i finally checked to see if the balls were done. they were... i was hoping. so i put the sauce on top of the spagetti and then i went to pick up the plate and dropped all of the spagetti on top of the stove. i was pissed!!! then i picked up the really hot spagetti with my hands and almost burnt myself...oops. so i ate the spagetti and afterward i had a stomach ache. something went wrong at some point. i am so ridiculous. i need a personal chef. yeah!!!

i love my classes. i like that i only have to focus on one subject right now. it is so much easier. i have homework all the time, and that is ok because i love math. There is this conference staying at rva called la meta who happen to be really awesome. they are all teachers who are refreshing their math skills at this conference. i really like them. the head guy is really awesome. he's teaching me so much about the TI-83 calculator(i am such a math dork).

so i have been falling asleep to eddie izzard and this morning i had a weird dream that involved a brittish accent. it was weird. all i remember was waking up thinking where did that come from. oh and my computer is fixxed YAY!!! i am so happy about that. i was so pissed off. I had some kind of virus and my baby was dying. it is fixxed now and it is working better than ever. i love my computer.

i might not have internet for a week. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! I am coming back on the 8th!!! I can't wait to see everyone!!!

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I quit drinking coffee two weeks ago.
I quit smoking a week ago.
It was so easy. Like too easy.

the Questioner Test finished!

you chose CY - your Enneagram type is SIX. "I am affectionate and skeptical" Questioners are responsible, trustworthy, and value loyalty to family, friends, groups, and causes. Their personalities range broadly from reserved and timid to outspoken and confrontative. How to Get Along with Me Be direct and clear. Listen to me carefully. Don't judge me for my anxiety. Work things through with me. Reassure me that everything is OK between us. Laugh and make jokes with me. Gently push me toward new experiences. Try not to overreact to my overreacting. What I Like About Being a Six being committed and faithful to family and friends being responsible and hardworking being compassionate toward others having intellect and wit being a nonconformist confronting danger bravely being direct and assertive What's Hard About Being a Six the constant push and pull involved in trying to make up my mind procrastinating because of fear of failure; having little confidence in myself fearing being abandoned or taken advantage of exhausting myself by worrying and scanning for danger wishing I had a rule book at work so I could do everything right being too critical of myself when I haven't lived up to my expectations Sixes as Children Often are friendly, likable, and dependable, and/or sarcastic, bossy, and stubborn are anxious and hypervigilant; anticipate danger form a team of "us against them" with a best friend or parent look to groups or authorities to protect them and/or question authority and rebel are neglected or abused, come from unpredictable or alcoholic families, and/or take on the fearfulness of an overly anxious parent Sixes as Parents are often loving, nurturing, and have a strong sense of duty are sometimes reluctant to give their children independence worry more than most that their children will get hurt sometimes have trouble saying no and setting boundaries Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele The Enneagram Made Easy Discover the 9 Types of People HarperSanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages You liked the test? so please RATE it... but remember! it had only two questions!!! ;-) You are not completely happy with the result?! You chose CY Would you rather have chosen: AY (EIGHT) BY (FOUR) CX (TWO) CZ (ONE)

My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 0% on ABC You scored higher than 55% on XYZ

Link: The Quick and Painless ENNEAGRAM Test written by felk on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

The Maid of Honor Deliberate Gentle Love Master (DGLMf) Appreciated for your kindness and envied for all your experience, you are The Maid of Honor. Charismatic, affectionate, and terrific in relationships, you are what many girls would call a "perfect catch"--and you probably have many admirers, each wishing to capture your long-term love. You're careful, extra careful, because the last thing you want is to hurt anyone. Especially some poor girl whose only crime was liking you. Your exact opposite: Half-cocked Random Brutal Sex Dreamer We've deduced you're fully capable of a dirty fling, but you do feel that post-coital attachment after hooking up. So, conscientious person that you are, you do your best to reserve physical affection for those you respect...so you can respect yourself. Your biggest negative is the byproduct of your careful nature: indecision. You're just as slow rejecting someone as you are accepting them. ALWAYS AVOID: The Battleaxe, The Stiletto, The Sudden Departure, The Dirty Little Secret CONSIDER: The Maid of Honor, someone just like you. Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating. My profile name: cheeseringer

funny I liked taking this quiz again!!!

Fresno is a place where I am not in conflict with myself and my emotions. I am fine here. I do what I want to do. I sit down and do nothing. I have goals. I have learned to say yes when I want to say yes and no when I want to say no. I go to work everyday and I don't try to be the best, I only work to work. I look forward to it sometimes and sometimes I don't. I wake up and sit down and breathe. I am learning to be patient. I am learning to think before I do. Now the paranoia is something I work on constantly. I have to tell myself daily that I should not make assumptions based on fear, and it helps to be able to actually take the time to think about it. I have been here for a month now and i feel different. I feel calm and not just once in a while, most of the time. I don't think to much. I do my best to make the most of how things are and I am learning to appreciate what I have. I have always been running around trying to be the best and I remember thinking that is what I wanted. I don't want to be the best, i just want to make it through. I just want to run at my own pace. I really don't care how long it is going to take me to achieve what I want. I don't care about many things, and the more that I think about it I see that most of the things I care about I really have no reason to care about them, and that I should really care more about other more important things. I am simple and I like not talking. I like just staring off into space. I always felt like I needed to say everything or it would eat me up. that isn't the case. Most of the time I just want to be quiet. I am doing my best to take my time to do everything properly. I am starting to see that some of my standards that I have for myself are ridiculous. More and more I am starting to realize that most of the time when I make a goal I don't take my physical, emotional, mental, and  how many hours there are in a day into consideration. I want to do things the healthy way but when i think I can take 18 credit hours, work a 30 hour week, eat healthy, do homework, have time to chill with people, and personal time it doesn't seem possible. So in the end I think I can do this and maybe i can i don't know, but obviously I couldn't so I won't hold myself to such a high standard cause in the end I fail and I don't want that to be the case, but I don't want to have low standards either. So what I am learning is to have a balance.

Here things are usually simple, I enjoy having time to think. I enjoy trying new things. My new favorite thing is mini golf. I won twice. 74 to 85. 74 to77. so exciting!!!